B debates for a second before deciding, hell, it's just confession hour now, and Shaw gets to hear it. He hopes she really wants to know.
"Well. First, because if I never get the serum, I can never kill a whole shit-ton of people," B starts. "That's a lot of people HYDRA will have to either leave alive, or find some other way to deal with. Second." He sighs a bit. "I thought my coming back into Steve's life, after he'd been starting to finally settle into the future. Upset some kind of balance. When he left all his friends to go into the past. I thought that was my fault. I don't know anymore if that's true. And third. That's a lot of suffering I won't have to go through, myself, if I just. Die before it all happens."
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"Well. First, because if I never get the serum, I can never kill a whole shit-ton of people," B starts. "That's a lot of people HYDRA will have to either leave alive, or find some other way to deal with. Second." He sighs a bit. "I thought my coming back into Steve's life, after he'd been starting to finally settle into the future. Upset some kind of balance. When he left all his friends to go into the past. I thought that was my fault. I don't know anymore if that's true. And third. That's a lot of suffering I won't have to go through, myself, if I just. Die before it all happens."