Will arches a brow right back, but he smiles, too. "I'll tell you. I promise...and I'll pinkie-promise. I'm not so far gone as to want to self-destruct when there's nothing on the line. For me, it's more...a refocusing exercise. I'd like to be able to kick myself out of those states easier, especially when I get hit with people's emotional garbage on the Barge."