"It was a waste," he agrees; he didn't care at all at the time, but in the time since...

Well. Nothing he can do about it now. Except feel guilty. He's pretty good at that.

"I don't know that I was close when she left. I don't know that I was close the day before it happened - I don't know what day it did happen or what the fuck did it," he says, shrugging almost aggressively. "Like I said. I wasn't even trying. Never was. Never did." Not really. Not for very long. "Seems kinda unfair, when I see people who really are."