[ He imagines Shaw does not have a lot of avenues for this conversation, and unlike himself she may actually desire it without realizing that's what she desires, so he asks deliberately: ]
[ Harold has a lot of experience with grief. He can recognize it. ]
Mr. Carver reminded me of her recently. I realized that as long as he didn't think I actually created God, his religious beliefs couldn't possibly phase me.
[Shaw feels a faint burning sensation behind her eyes - rare for her, but not completely unheard of, even though she mostly associates it with things like extremely smoky environments and excruciating amounts of pain. She waits to see if a tear or two will break through, the way one had that day in the subway.
No dice.]
yeah
but if she ever shows up here, don't tell her that. her ego's big enough.
What I'd be going back to is the remnants of Decima trying to track me down and force me to build another Samaritan. I'd need to confirm all traces of its code and the Machine's are truly gone and not backed up anywhere, and then I'd need to return to hiding.
I also rashly went to see Grace, after everything, which means I've imperiled her once again.
I think for all concerned it's best if I remain here.
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on mine
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Constantly.
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What do you think about?
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Stuff that reminds me of her, I guess
I usually don't plan to think about her, it just happens
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[ Harold has a lot of experience with grief. He can recognize it. ]
Mr. Carver reminded me of her recently. I realized that as long as he didn't think I actually created God, his religious beliefs couldn't possibly phase me.
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I'm quite certain she was, and always will be, entirely singular.
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No dice.]
yeah
but if she ever shows up here, don't tell her that. her ego's big enough.
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but you know how depressing that sounds, right?
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I also rashly went to see Grace, after everything, which means I've imperiled her once again.
I think for all concerned it's best if I remain here.
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Does that matter, if it's what we have left?
[ If it's what John has left. ]
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[It's the sort of thing that Root would care a lot about, though, if she were here.]
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Something Root said to me once -- "It all adds up to something. All of this matters. We all matter."
I find myself thinking about that a lot lately.